Andrew Garfield revealed the death of his mother left him in “extreme pain” and told how he had been unable to do “anything” for a while.
The 38-year-old actor’s mother died of pancreatic cancer in 2019, shortly before filming for his Oscar-nominated role in Tick, Tick…Boom!
Detailing the impact of his loss to Jackie Long on Channel 4, Andrew said wistfully it left him feeling lost and disoriented, adding: “With a loss like this, the world is being rearranged.”
Devastated: Andrew Garfield revealed his mother’s death left him in ‘extreme pain’ and told how he had been unable to do ‘anything’ for a while
He explained, “It is very difficult, I think with a loss like this the world is rearranged and I say I know I am not unique in that experience.
It’s so weird because it feels so unique when it happens, if I feel like my God, I’m the only one who’s ever lost his mother, because it feels so lonely and so subtle.
It felt like a delicate torment and I didn’t want to for a while, and I couldn’t do anything.
“I was kind of lost and the world didn’t make sense, and it still does, because I miss her so badly, and I hope it never makes sense because I always want to miss her.”
Sad: The actor’s 38-year-old mother, Lynne, died of pancreatic cancer in 2019, shortly before filming for his Oscar-nominated role in Tick, Tick…Boom! (Pictured with Lynn and dad Richard in 2018)
Andrew was winning rave reviews and awards for his portrayal of Tick, Tick… Boom! “Rent” composer and composer Jonathan Larson, who died suddenly on the morning of the first preview of “Rent”.
And while the movie star, also known for his role as Spider-Man, says his mother was “proud” of his film career, she was even more elated by the way he treats people in everyday life.
He said on the show, “She was proud of my accomplishments but she was so much more proud of the way I handled someone in Sainsbury or Asda who was checking us out for groceries, she was someone who was all about the little kindness in life.”
Tragic: Detailing the impact of his loss on Channel 4 news, Jackie Long, Andrew wistfully said it left him feeling lost and disoriented, adding: “With a loss like this, the world is being rearranged.”
Explaining how his mother has always influenced him, he continued: “If I am irritable with someone, if I am having a hard day and someone passes by me and has been kind to me and I am rude, I will feel a little hand on my shoulder, it will be my mother’s hand and I hear her say ‘Andrew’ and I will come back and say Sorry that was a bit rude of me.
“I hope she doesn’t take her hand off my shoulder like that.”
It comes as Netflix viewers have been stunned by Andrew’s “amazing” portrayal of composer Jonathan Larson in the new musical.
Starring Andrew and Vanessa Hudgens, the film is a semi-autobiographical story about composer/playwright Jonathan in the early days of his life as he struggles with turning 30 and the harsh realities of life as a struggling artist.
The Loss: ‘I was kind of lost and the world didn’t make sense, it still does, because I miss her so much, I hope it never makes sense because I always want to miss her’ (Pictured with his parents in 2006)
He spent years working in a restaurant in New York and living in a small apartment, which didn’t even have heating, as he tried to make it a composer and playwright.
Larson died tragically, at age 35, of an aortic dissection in 1996 the night before the premiere of the RENT musical off-Broadway.
The show comes as fan favorite, the… BOOM! Failed to make list of BAFTAs.
It wasn’t ranked in a single category, though Andrew won a Golden Globe and a SAG nomination for Best Actor.
However, it is up to Best Actor and Best Film Editing at the 94th Academy Awards.
Role: Andrew plays Pulitzer Prize-winning playwright Jonathan Larson in the critically acclaimed biopic directed by Lin-Manuel Miranda, which begins airing November 19 on Netflix